Friday, September 20, 2013

Prepare your heart

They told me to prepare
my heart; so, I bought
a store brand marinade
and 7 bell peppers.

I made an incision just beneath
the ribcage, reached into
my summer garden of a chest
and plucked it like an heirloom tomato.

I set it on the drain board
and covered it with cumin.
I sliced it into 14, quarter inch slices.

I put them in a bowl,
added my father’s Polish herbs
and soaked them in the marinade.

My heart is now in the fridge
beside a jug of milk
a 7 brightly colored peppers.

They told me to prepare my heart
Another, I suppose, will cook it.

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Diana Nyad

She drank water no tongue
has touched, above orcas
and eyeless lobsters. She
saw sun sink in water that
was warm then cold, that
opened like a grave, that
spoke secret words of
regret and retreat.  She held
two countries in white
hands.  She pushed and pulled
her way to Florida. Her heart
is full of jellyfish, her skin
a soft legume.  When I am
old and grey and barely
awake.  I hope I have the
strength to say "The sea
waits for me."  I hope I
have the strength to be
blue and bloody, to hold
discouragment by the throat,
to drink redemption like wine.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Misogynist's Lament

It is because I think they’re
dumb and biting and
cynical and weak.

It’s because their conversations
are the tired d├ęcoupages of failed or
failing loves.

It’s because they sell their
limited stories too often and
for too cheap.

It’s because their best is so
often our middling.

It’s because birth and decoration
are their greatest achievements.

It’s because they have fought for these rights,
and they have frittered them away.

It’s because of Pinterest and Facebook and Twitter
and Weight Watchers and Starbucks
and toy dogs and salads and eyeliner
that I am so disillusioned.

It is because they are the moon and the earth
and they settled for a spray-on tan.

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Our Fathers

We are not our fathers
with their apple throats
and burlap skin.

We are not our fathers
with their thick tongues
and monstrous hands.

We are not the young
men they were,
the sons of Vietanm
and segregation.

We are not their
moon-eyed faces,
looking up as Americans
filled the sky.

We are not the social
conservatives and union
sympathizers, the
cigarette-lipped children
of immigrants.

We are not reckless
and dying.

We are not our fathers,
but we are their shadows,

and we stretch
tall from their
steel-toed boots.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Developmental Mathematics

I teach developmental mathematics.
In the 1990s we would have called it
remedial. In the 1790s we would
have called it cutting edge.

My students are the leftover students.
I teach the prom queens who no longer
have a kingdom.  I teach the tattooed
and the pierced.  I teach the veterans
who hold their pencils like detonators.

My students are non-traditional students,
students who have nine to fives,
students who leave my evening class
and stock the local Wal-Mart until
the sun rises.

In my class we factor, distribute, solve,
and simplify. We do math that, for many,
was done alongside puberty.

My students did not get it, or, more often,
they were not given it. And so I hold
them by their mathematical hands,
and we walk into the world.

My students think they are stupid.
They have been told as much by faculty,
friends, family, and every news report that
compares America to China.

My students think that I am smart
because I can divide, multiply, add,
and subtract fractions without so much as
moving a pencil.

Other people like that I teach developmental
mathematics.  They say that I am a good soul.
They say that I should be lauded for my effort.

I think other people like the fact that I teach
developmental mathematics, because
they like the fact that they aren’t enrolled.
They like that there will always be cashiers
at Taco Bell and people to change their oil.

What they don’t know is that one
by one I am building a small army.

What they don’t know is that the
prom queen is about to find her crown.

What they don’t know is that the
Wal-Mart stocker just factored a trinomial
without so much as moving a pencil.

We’re all climbing ladders here.
My money is on the ones who were never told to stop.